Missing Butterrum

So, looks like my cat decided to run off last night, I was doing laundry and visiting with a neighbor, left the door open as I often do, she's quite good about knowing her boundries, but guess you can't rely on that. It just seems so strange, her to be gone, and I don't know if she's come back, but she's certianly not equipped to be an outdoor cat, being that the tendons on her front claws where sliced surgically, so that she would not be able to claw at much of anything. I have to say I can only imagine the verbal lashing I would receive from T found out. Obviously this represents a lack of responsiblity on my part, and yes I can understand that point of view. How am I going to take time to debate my perception of someone else's judgements, which could only really be my own, perceive, at this point. Appearently so, well I have to admit, I have been less attentive of the kitty, pushing her away, she's very demanding of attention at times. I just tend to take the, it's for the best, but then again there are raccoons out there, and if my poor kitty has been mauled to death, well it will be my fault. But I don't really think there is much I can do at this point. The irony is that the landlord had just posted a sign stating pets are allowed with a $100 deposit. After the just sorta blah Christmas, having my cat run, well was just as off as the rest of it. I spent time with my Mom, she was glad for the company, but I had to hear a lot of the same old from her, she's not happy where she's at, and any suggestion I offer seems to be not helpful. Saw Michael for a bit over at my mom's, as usual at Amanda's conveniece. I did get to speak with my sister Sarah, and here fragments of gossip about the others from my mom, I'm hardly quite sure what she's talking about anymore, It would be great if Sarah could move up here and look after her a bit. So my cat is missing, either she'll come back or she won't. Not really getting my hopes up at this point, I'll ask the neighbors what they saw when I get home, and see where it goes from there.