another day on this road I travel

There are some answers for which all the libraries in the world, all the words, compiled and cross referenced, will not reveal. Some places in time that some how seem clearer and more real. Of late, it seems that to climb is the only way to go, despite the almost inevitable chance that a decent will again follow. This also means confrontation, and an end to certian allowances, trades for convienience, because do demand more of myself means reclaiming something back from those that have been allowed to pick at the pieces of me for which I cared so little. Digging at the roots so as to replant where there is room for growth. The well is deep, and the waters that run are infinate as time itself. Who is there to blame? If I knew what I know now, I would never have been where I was, and then where would I be now, if not here? Beyond any single moment, a life composed of many, memories, sacrifices, mistakes, unspoken treasures. I remember the dead day, and the transition to grey, living in a space to small for me with no room to grow, but my home my shell is cracking, and the air is sweet. The trails that lead forward, lead to trial know and unknown. So what will me choose the secret or the mystery? It was over a year ago that I looking into my heart and saw the anger that still consumed me, that I allowed to seperate me from the outside. Since then I've tried to hard to kill it, knowing that it could only bring pain. Sought to heal myself to isolation, to lock myself away from any who would get close, but some healing cannot take place in isolation. Some anger is justified, and somethings are worth giving up life for. But also accepting death and living life is true courage, why be one of those that is just waiting to die. I can't make assumptions beyond my own capacity, but I can attain live within my own capactiy. Breathe.....perhaps I've said to much, perhaps not enought, but for now I shall remain silent, the play continues, some of us have made perdictions regarding the upcoming scenes, no matter what the outcome I'll be there....