engaged and resolute

so these are my words of wisdom for the moment, sifted bits of inspired words that I have decided to fix in a given position so that I might come back to them and a later date and be reminded they where there. My life right now, well for quite some time as seems to be about a disillusionment of persective, a disintigration of what I thought I was, now I'm not so sure if it's about building up or tearing down anymore, but certianly it about being involved in the process, something my friends have heard me mention 'the dialog' which I see as an endless conversation, much like the axiomatic concept of 1>~<1 'the argument', there are some things that we may never agree on, if fact true agreement 1=1 nullifies the equation, A DJ friend from LCC was fond of the phrase 'I'm not like you', and you know what who is, who needs to be, the thread that ties up all together need not be so evident, and you could argue all day the differences and simularities, that's not the point. The point is that it is possible to touch the thread recognize our differences expand well beyond anything we might be able to ever know of another person. There are many people I have thought I've know well, only to find that I knew a preconception, an idea. Change is the only constant. Wow I think i'm off topic again, suprises there, but engaged nonetheless. One of my fascinations of late has been ideas of man machine identity nature culture society, of which I will write more. I'm still sorting, this reorganizing for me is also personal, it's reclaiming the parts of myself I've buried or ran from, it's about staying engaged, it a process of self discovery, and resolved to make something of it, what yet I'm not sure, and I can tell you the process itself at least is going from being something totally scatter to something that at least I can envision being a variety of interest, ideas, concepts, projects, that are a network of some sort, an extension of myself somehow. I have often been quite to excuse myself from the resposibility of this work, this art that is my life. And yes I guess I am an artist, I mean what other time of person would take recordings of the sounds of a soda can being crushed, or draw all those circles....and an artist I once met told me that the responsibility of an artist was to be a witness. To perhaps add illustration to the world, smash the mirror and glue the pieces back together. I promise I'll be getting to the interesting stuff soon, stories of personal fear and self loathing, of overcoming ridiculous misfortune, and more the likely a lot of fragmented abstractions, and try to avoid getting beyond my scope for the time being. Well to all I would like to say, take care.