when walking up hill rocks roll down

Sometimes all it takes is effort, I almosts lost my job today, or at least my position on the team. The effort that I've been making the couple weeks saved me. It was noticed. Once you start making that effort again, start that uphill climb that's when all of those forgotten challenges those monters you've tried to hide from let you know that they are still there, still yours. I know it was my own decision to make this start again, to take those steps I have told myself to take, listen to the whispers of dreams, regain footing on that ledge. And today I find myself in tears broken down, dodging, and having to decide to pick up that heavy armor, carry the sword of self authorization, write these words, and remember all those words spoken and unspoken that where offered up with love, despite my fear. I may have lost more then I know this day, and I will except that, and continue. So many of the people close to me may never know thier place in my heart, I hope one day to be better at saying the right words. So for now. Thanks.